Beginning a New

After two weeks of dealing with my grandmothers death and my daughters sickness, today is a new day. It's is a pleasent morning with the sun streaming through the windows. My hopes are up and I feel ready to challenge the world again.

The major outcome of these events was a recommitment to specific aspects of my life. Family is now very important. I'm no longer willing to miss dinner and am relishing my morning time with my daughter. Also have cut the fat out of things that I've been doing, which is giving me a little extra time to focus on things. While I definitely didn't want to go through what has happened, it has given me a much different outlook.

Two things of note - Heard a great interview yesterday on NPR about a guy who decided to say "yes" instead of "no' for a year. I fell like I've been saying yes to the things I should have said no to and no to the things I should have said yes to. I pledging to be a bit better at this.

Also heard an interesting talk about fatalism's effect on our perception of identity. Since nothing is going to work out, why even worry about the effect of choices. This is definitely me. Glass is always half empty. I'm wondering about how this outlook effects our willingness to be reflexive.